Transformation of Silence- Reflection

            Something that resonates with me is something she says in the second to last paragraph on page 44. She says, “For we have been socialized to respect fear more than our own needs for language and definition, and while we wait in silence for that final luxury of fearlessness, the weight of that silence will choke us.” I believe that as I am getting older I realize the importance of actually using my words to communicate because silencing myself will not get me anywhere. I am trying to break the cycle of being silenced, whether that is by family, society, etc. I definitely feel as though I am drowning in my silence because I am afraid of the outcome of speaking up. I think that my only challenge is the fear of what the outcome would be if I speak up. I have a tendency of thinking the worst of a situation before I actually experience it, so I just refrain from doing what I think is best, which in this case would be speaking up. This is literally the one thing that I am trying my best to work on because again, I feel like the longer I remain silent, the more I feel like I am drowning. One other thing that resonates with me is what she said about what her daughter told her. She said, “Tell them about how you're never really a whole person if you remain silent because there's always that one little piece inside you that wants to be spoken out, and if you keep ignoring it, it gets madder and madder and hotter and hotter,…” I can say that this is the way that I feel when I keep myself silent. Since I go so longer without speaking up I just feel like exploding at some point because the silence just gets to me. This is why I want to change my silent nature and start speaking up about things that I care about and things that  are important to communicate.